阅读下面材料,在空白处填入适当的内容(1个单词)或括号内单词的正确形式。The world, I discovered, was not all that interested. I wandered around my early twenties, paying rent and 【小题1】 (wonder) why the lights were not turning green for me. My dream was to be a famous musician, but after several years of dark, empty nightclubs, broken promises, bands that kept breaking up and producers 【小题2】 seemed excited about everyone but 【小题3】 (I), the dream failed.
At 【小题4】 same time, I had my first serious encounter with 【小题5】 (die). My favorite uncle, my mother’s brother, the man who had taught me music, taught me to drive, thrown me a football—that one adult whom I targeted as a child and said, “that’s who I want to be when I grow up”—died of cancer 【小题6】 the age of forty-four. He was a short, handsome man with a thick mustache, and I was with him for the last year of his life, living in an apartment just below his. I watched his strong body become 【小题7】 (weak) than before, saw him suffer, night after night, doubled over at the dinner table, pressing on his stomach. His eyes 【小题8】 (shut), and his mouth twisted in pain. The rest of us—my aunt, his two young sons, me—stood there 【小题9】 (silent), cleaning the plates, turning our eyes away from this. It was the most helpless I 【小题10】 (feel) ever in my life.